Thursday, May 31, 2007
i'm currently on the phone with my sister who's across the ocean.
and here's her joke of the century:
"i pronounce you as woman and wife."
*LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH* (both of us)
"eh no. i pronounce you as man and wife."
*CONTINUES LAUGHING* (that's me)
and then i go "it's actually husband and wife."
she has just hang up on me. SHE SAID BYE AND I DIDN'T SAY BYE. AHH. i'm sorry if i'm over-reacting, but SHE'S IN SOMEWHERE THAT IS ACROSS THE OCEAN.
alright. i think this phone call distracted me. so now i'm happy and high again! yay.
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:51 AM
i didn't expect this to come back to me again. especially while i'm busy missing canada, or rather looking forward to canada.
it really is a strong feeling. one that actually sets my tear glands active.
i thought i've gotten over you. but i was wrong, i guess.
i wonder how long this will go on. i wonder when i'll ever get over it. i wonder when i'll get over you. all these was so long ago.
i think i really miss you. ):
au revoir.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:37 AM
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
CANADA please come to me.
i swear i'm going to cry when i leave canada this year.
i swear i'm going to cry every night again when i return to singapore.
i swear that this will be the first time i'll cry in front of grandpa, grandma and aunts and uncles and er cousins?
i swear that i'm going to have a BRILLIANT time there.
i swear that i'll love canada even more than now.
i swear that i'm going to go on many many shopping sprees.
AHHHH. boredom and over-longing for canada are making me blog twice in 4 hours time.
AHHHH. every now and then i'll wonder what's my sister doing. every now and then the vivid image of grandms's house will come into my mind. then my mind will run through every spot in the house. AHHHH.
someone save me. ):
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:15 AM
i think it's bad for health when you stay indoors everyday. not like i love my house or something. but i'm just too lazy to leave the house. and furthermore, i'm lazy to go date people.
staying indoors for the second day (whole day that is) makes me sleepy. oh yes. i also refuses to do my homework. gosh. someone get me out of this state.
hmm. i wonder what fiona is doing now. i bet mommy is sleeping all day again due to jetlag. and i bet fiona's jetlag has worn off. since she's not coming online at 6 plus 7 plus in the morning anymore.
next friday seems so far away. i wonder how i'm going to survive this 8 days. i wonder how i'm going to survive the supplementary lessons.
i seriously can't wait to go to canada. where cloudless skies awaits. (that just came up suddenly. hoho) AHHH. i'm overwhelmed with excitement. maybe i'm excited cause i'll get LOTS of attention. HMM.
hmm. i think i sound weird in this post. i'm phrasing sentences in a funny way. that's what happens when i actually self-confine myself.
OHH. whatever and anything drinks ARE SO er COOL. but seriously, you can guess the flavour from the ingredients okay! haha.
anyway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI! thanks for always letting us laugh at you and your bad pronounciations. although when everyone laughs at you, you'll come and pull my sleeves. i know you want to see my flesh lar. too much influence from jialing. but NO THANKS. haha. LOVE YOU.
alright. cup noodles time. (i'm deprived of a proper meal)
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
6:34 AM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
chinese o levels is TOMORROW. and i'm only starting to study. OH NO.
i feel so relieved now. maybe cause i've kind of settled down. so hopefully i'll return to my old self. or do you all prefer to have me being quiet?
i still feel like crying everything i go to bed. insecure i guess. mommy, fiona and kenneth left for canada yesterday. accompanied them to the airport at 3.30am. came back at 5 and slept all the way till 12 noon. i didn't sleep before going to the airport, as you see, my dear fiona wants her nails done. so i painted it for her and put beads on it.
damn nice okay! so proud of it.
i can't wait to go back to canada. can the 8th arrive quickly?
fiona tse is being a pig now. she's going around grandma's house searching for food. (i'm currently talking to her online) and she's insane. cause it's 8 plus there in the morning and she's awake. but despite all these, i'm jealous of her. cause she's there enjoying herself and getting well-fed. and me? HMM. but anyway, I MISS YOU FIONA. i don't really miss mommy though. OPPS. haha. and and fiona is going to gossip with me later. YAY. (oh no. that means i can't study. damn.)
oh yes. i think the remark on my report book is damn funny. here it goes:
A sentimental and faithful girl who treasures friendship. Vicki has found close friends among her peers. She aims to excel academically and seeks help when she is in doubt.
hmm. i wonder who wrote that. and how did they know that i treasure friendships. HAHA. sentimental? faithful? HMM. aims to excel academically. yeah sure. but i'm not doing anything towards that goal. seeks help when i'm in doubt? SO NOT TRUE. hah.
alright. i shall go and study for chinese. i'm going to grab an A. yay.
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:46 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
i want to cry.
i'm going crazy. cause i finish anything due to the lack of time.
i want to talk. but i've found out that i've nobody to talk to.
this feeling really sucks.
i don't want to go to school tomorrow. in this way, i'll have more time.
but i
can't skip school. there's string photo-taking. there's the dance thing for p.e. there's biology mock SPA.
AHHHH. serves me right.
au revoir.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:49 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
calm down. calm down, vicki. i'm been getting very easily annoyed lately. sheesh. where did all my patience go? i'm sorry if i ever scream at anyone okay? but i think the person i'm most likely to scream as is chin yi xiu. since she doesn't really show any feelings when i scream at her. and it's convenience. i just have to turn to the back. gosh. i should really learn how to control my emotions. but anyway let me apologise first.
sorry to anyone i might scream at in the near future.you know, i can't really stand it nowadays when people tell me that they've got no time. i don't see how anyone has got lesser time than me. okay. i know that's a very mean thing to say, but if only you all know what's happening. basically, i don't even have time to study for chinese. that's just great, you know.
i don't even feel like coming home anymore. coming home will only make me even more stress. seeing everyone busy just make me feel even worse. i've not even started please. and furthermore, i'm in front of the computer now. i just can't bring myself to really start.
i'm just annoyed with myself.
ignore me please. thank you.
au revoir.
just 3 more days.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
8:28 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
i should really stop running to my toilet and stuffing my head into my towel to cry. furthermore, i'll be making noise. so if anyone barge into my room, they're know that i'm crying.
i feel so sorry towards my family. i've been so annoyed and troubled for the whole day. so i've been kind of ignoring them and snapping at them. OPPS. and dinner was horrible okay. normally, dinner is the best time for us to gossip. SIGH.
and my sister was being a bitch today. though at times, she's actually a retarded bitch. AND she really gossip well. or rather she listens and then give stupid comments. but in a way or another, she's an adorable bitch. so nevertheless, i still love her. ( OH OH. she is reading this now. we don't backstab each other. (: )
anyway today's trip to secret recipe was hilarious. daddy was astonished that i actually knew this shop. cause he had never brought me there before. and when i told him that i had a birthday cake from awfully chocolate this year, he went 'you knew that shop too?'. HAHA. and mommy obviously felt left out. since these are not stuff that she'll know. oh oh! then mommy, fiona and i started laughing at this gay in the shop. he was cutting the slices of cake you see. so he didn't notice that we were laughing. but but but he was damn gay. oh my gosh. HAHA.
mommy, fiona and kenneth are flying off to canada this coming saturday. so it'll only be me and daddy. or rather only me. since daddy is often not around. how am i going to survive for 2 whole weeks huh. anyone wants to have dinner with me?
alright.
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
11:23 AM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
i'm breaking up with nat! or should i say, i've broke up with nat! (since it happened on thursday)
nat was such a horrible sweetheart. when i was talking to her, she was thinking about someone else. when she's looking at me, her mind is filled with thoughts of someone else. when she's my sweetheart, she has eyes for someone else. RAHH. NAT. i'm not going to blast you off to planets anymore! humph!
ooh. guess what. i told my sister, 'i've broke up with nat'. then she went, 'you're losing your friends like that.' HAHAHA. i can't believe she actually took my break up with nat
seriously. i'm been feeling better lately. or maybe not. when i'm alone, i still feel terrible. alone = imagination runs wild. that's why i should always be around people to keep my mind occupied.
yeah right. like there is anyone who will be actually accompany me 24/7. (well there used to be someone like that. tsk tsk)
oooh yes.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING YING! yay. 19ths are the best!
and and and syaz saw me while she was in her car this morning! i saw her daddy's car number, and then i was like 'oh shit'. HAHA. it was so funny. then i was trying to hide from her. yay. i love syazzy!
alright.
au revoir!
daddy was being annoying today. he went, 'do you want to take your o levels? if not, we'll go look for a high school for you when we go back to canada this june.' AHH. what was his problem?
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:17 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
i feel a sudden urge to cry.
how do you all expect me to concentrate on my 'o' levels with all this things happening now? and hello? chinese 'o' levels is on the 28th of may. and AHHH.
i don't want to type out what exactly is happening.
i don't even want to think about what's happening. i just want to sleep all day.
aiya. whatever lar.
i don't even dare to talk to claaar now. sheesh.
i need at least a freaking A for mid years. and i just can't get it.
maybe i should have insisted that i want to go back to canada when daddy asked last year.au revoir.
vicki has never existed.isn't it good that i'm quiet for a change? HAH.lynnette. i'm glad that you've realised it's actually a waste of time worrying about me. (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
8:28 AM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
i passed by the now half-demolished kcp while on bus 43 today. and it's kind of heart-breaking to see it in this state. it's hard to imagine that i used to spend 6 years of my life in there. and the memories i had during primary school are becoming blur. and it's really very scary. what if one day, i won't be able to recall them anymore? primary school is important to me okay.
then the same thing is going to happen when i leave tkgs. i can't imagine life without my darlings and my stringers. and then
when i leave singapore. what if a few years later, i can't remember
anything at all?okay. i should stop letting my imagination run wild.
i think i really missed out a lot from the videoworld clique gathering yesterday. they had so much fun. oh well. ):
you know what. different is just different. i feel totally out of place in this city. you all can start losing me now. i'm kind of tired trying to keep holding on to everything. i'm been trying to do that for the past few years, and it has all been useless. so
i give up on everything. i think i was all along supposed to be on my own. but at least, i'm certain that in the future, i'll be all alone.
my best friend is angry/annoyed with me. and it was obviously my fault.
that's just great, vicki. that's the only thing you can excel in. making the world pissed/angry/annoyed.
i swear that if i don't get an A for chinese, i'll go and kill myself.
au revoir.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:38 AM
Monday, May 14, 2007
i'm just not fated to go for the videoworld clique gathering.
and why? cause i had gastric this morning again. and i vomited
again. luckily there's no school today. if not i'll be vomiting in school again. sheesh.
i'm still feeling funny now. and my head is spinning. and i don't know why.
i don't want to go to school tomorrow. can i?i swear i'm never going to skip both breakfast and lunch again. cause that's what i've been doing this past three days. and it resulted in gastric.
and guess what. when i
tried to tell my mom that i had gastric, she started scolding me because i'm always skipping breakfast on weekends. so yes, she was scolding me when i was in great pain. and i was breaking out in cold sweat.
and i could barely talk.
i think i'm having problems digesting food. :/
and i've been sleeping the whole day today. :/
au revoir.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
8:09 AM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
i'm not well. neither am i alive, nor on the face of the earth.
but i'm not dead or in mars either.
conclusion: i'm not alright.
i'm really very sorry to all those who are worried about me. but, you all shouldn't get worried. it's not worth it.
i'm very sorry to mommy. i'm not exactly feeling mentally well. and i've practically treated mothers' day like one particular bad mood day. and it doesn't really help since i'm currently at loggerheads with my sister.
i'm sorry videoworld clique darlings. i've practically contradicted myself. but i was truely, really very excited about 14th of may.
i'm sorry to all those whom i've avoided/ignored.
i'm sorry claaar. for not being of any help. i really feel very bad about that. and i detest myself for that.
life has suddenly turned meaningless. i want to cry, but i don't think i've any more tears left. let's see how i've used up all my tears alright. i came home on friday afternoon and cried myself to sleep. then i went to watch corner with love, and i cried again. on saturday, i cried while watching corner with love. and then at night, i cried myself to sleep. today, well, it was an improvement. i've only cried during corner with love. who knows if i'll cry myself to sleep later.
and no. i'm not crying because of being under the influence of corner with love.
you know what. it's really tiring, being optimistic all day long. and what's the point of always being happy and cheery no matter what happens? do i really bring joy to people's life? or am i just annoying them?
i'm beginning to stop believing in things that i had always believed in.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:48 AM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
i seemed to have vanished ever since yesterday afternoon.
well, i was trying to. all i did was hide in my room. except during dinner time. i've practically skipped lunch since yesterday. and all i've done so far is to watch taiwan drama, play the piano, eat and sleep. intention: to live in my own little world.
guess what. the things that had kept my life going, seems to be disappearing. i don't want to be optimistic anymore. i have no idea why i'm always so happy and cheery no matter what happens. it's really very tiring.
but when i know that by being optimistic, i cheers people around me, i guess that's worth it. or maybe, that's what i believe in.
but i'm beginning to stop believing in what i had used to believe in.
had i really fitted in this city? i've always believed so. i thought my life was oh-so-perfect. but everything seems to be failing. mid-years are really very screwed. what is the point of being below average?
and i just don't belong anywhere here. all of the people i've met are great. really great. i will die without them. but i'm just different. maybe, if i start drifting from them, it wouldn't hurt that much when i leave.
i wonder if anyone actually feel left out from the family. this actually worsen the situation, doesn't it?
it's really scary how time flies. i was just looking through photos again. and memories came back to me. times when i felt blessed. times when the world revolved around me. times when i had laughed heartily. times when i was truely happy.
i can't sleep. and i can't cry too.
au revoir.
i'm really sorry claaar. for not being of any help. that's why i detest myself.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
1:01 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUO YU! i hoped that you've liked our surprise. hopefully i didn't wander around parkway for one hour, hiding from you, for nothing. anyway you've been a wonderful friend! for always entertaining me. at any hour of the day. LOVE. (:
my hair seriously sucks. AHHH. i want to go back to hong kong. and find my aunt's hairdresser to save my hair. AHHH. i want my hair to
grow. gosh. the woman cut so much of my hair, so now practically all my curls is gone. sheesh.
okay. i'm annoyed. irritated. traumatised. and sad. i really feel like crying, to moan for my poor dead hairs. and my sister can't wait to laugh at me.
alright.
au revoir!
i've basically forgotten all about mep practical. :/
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
5:15 AM
Monday, May 07, 2007
the final two papers are over. (: i really can't wait for mid-years to be officially over. though before that, i'll most probably hyperventilate. cause it's mep practical. :/
i think you all should start looking out for phrases on nat's blog. but they are so cheesy. :/
haha. but i think they are kind of sweet. (tsk tsk) and obviously nat's happy.
"I LOVE YOU! i can't imagine what life would be like without you. my sexy sunshine."
nat told me that after i've blasted her off to venus. so i asked, "what would life be like without me?" here she goes:
"it would be dark and...unsexy"
do you all agree on that? i wonder. or would you all be glad? cause a major noise pollutant will be gone. (: but nevertheless, it made me smile. and i'm amazed by how this little things can make me smile, even when i think of them in my sleep.
alright.
au revoir!
happy days come best with cotton candy. i miss my supply of cotton candy. ):
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:59 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
cotton candy is love. (:yesterday was my last skating lesson. ):
my coach looks sad. ):
there will be no more early saturday mornings. no more of spending saturday mornings in the rink, nearly freezing to death. no more tripping on my toepicks. no more bruises on my knees.
i can't wait for o levels to be over. then i can resume my skating lessons. (:
tomorrow is my final two papers, not counting mep performing, since it is not a paper. and i didn't study for emath. oh well.
i can't wait for canada! my endless shopping sprees. all paid by my parents of course.
oh my. and of course getting to spend time with my relatives. it's fun okay! we share silly jokes. and we shall have the bbq session! where i shall get high and drunk. yay. i dread the
long plane rides though. it'll only be my dad and i. how boring can that be. and my ipod can't last me for, hmm, more than a day's time.
and and and i can't wait for the
fourteen of may. ((:
alright. time to sleep.
au revoir!
i've got a darling.i've got a sweetheart.i've got a sweetiepie.i've got a bestest bestest friend too.who wants to be my cotton candy?
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:59 AM
Friday, May 04, 2007
english, social studies, mep, chemistry, chinese paper 1, geography elective, amath, biology, physics papers are
OVER. now there's only emath, chinese paper 2 and mep performing left. (:
i'm in a holiday mood now. though exams are still not over. but chemistry, biology and physics are over. (: oh what joy. hopefully i won't be made to drop physics.
or biology.
OH MY. i forgot about my chat with kelly. damn. i shall talk to sasa/rissa rissa then. yay.
anyway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRIE!HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HONG KONG FRIEND!yay. i'm going to call my hong kong friend later. how fun. then we can have our annual bitching phone call session. ((:
oh oh! i want the new samsung phone. ultra edition 10.9. i don't know what's the model number. HAH. but it's so pretty! (yes i know. i just changed my phone six months ago) i can still dream right? okay fine. i still love my phone. dorisa likes it too! (:
i don't know what was wrong with my brains today. so all of a sudden, i have a new goal. go look at my wishlist. the one in bold. i think this is such an interesting goal. and anyway it makes me happy too. it's even more meaningful since this is my last year in singapore. (:
alright.
au revoir!
i should seriously stop going around asking for a farewell party. i'm not sure if i actually want one. ((:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
6:07 AM